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missing them already

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As most of you know, I have been counting down the days until my family’s arrival for months! Sadly, it’s already come and gone… but the good news is we had a GREAT time. We made so many memories and lots of Ezra cuddling happened (their motive for coming). It was a time I will always treasure… missing them already!

#prayforkenya

934004_10151639908301440_1237284871_nMy heart is so heavy as I write this post.

Shock.

Fear.

Anger.

Sorrow.

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Noor Khamis / Reuters

 

Goran Tomasevic / Reuters

Goran Tomasevic / Reuters

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Goran Tomasevic / Reuters

With each new piece of information, with each new photo… the tears just won’t cease. I can’t seem to shake the fear- What’s next? What if we had been there? What if that had been my little girl… my husband… me? It so easily could have been. We had plans to go to Westgate next weekend. It would have been a completely normal thing for us to have been there.

Through the flood of questions and anxiety in my heart, God reminds me: “You weren’t.”

Then a new set of emotions kick in:

Gratitude.

Relief.

Then I think of those who were there and the cycle starts over again.

Shock -I keep thinking, “I can’t believe this happened. This is supposed to be a safe place.” I really should not be surprised. Jesus warned us that these things would happen. John 16:2-4 – They will put you out of the synagogue; in fact, the time is coming when anyone who kills you will think they are offering a service to God. They will do such things because they have not known the Father or me. I have told you this, so that when their time comes you will remember that I warned you about them. None of these events have come as a shock to God. This is all part of the story of our fallen world.

Fear – Fear is something that began creeping into my life the day that Ezra was born. What a wonderful thing to have something you love so much… but what a crippling thought of ever having to live life without it. And fear sets in. Fear of everything… rational and irrational. Then comes this overwhelming need to protect my little girl against all harm. But that’s just it. Other than doing the obvious things I need to do to take care of her, the rest is out of my control. Philippians 4:6 –  Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.

Anger – My heart burns as I think about the evil that took place. These men took revenge on innocent people and justified it through a passage in the Koran. “So whoever has assaulted you, then assault him in the same way that he has assaulted you.”  That’s the difference. The Bible teaches us to love our enemies. Luke 6:27 & 28 – Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, 28 bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you.

Sorrow. My heart aches for everyone who was touched by the attack.

Psalm 13:2-6 –

How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and day after day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?

Look on me and answer, Lord my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death,
and my enemy will say, “I have overcome him,”
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.

But I trust in your unfailing love;
    my heart rejoices in your salvation.
I will sing the Lord’s praise,
    for he has been good to me.

 

God has used this tragedy to remind me to cling to Him.

Psalm 56:3-4 – When I am afraid, I will trust in you.  In God, whose word I praise, in God I trust; I will not be afraid. What can mortal man do to me?

John 16:33 I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.


 

Links:

New York Times article about the attack

Ten things to know about Al-Shabab

Pictures – Careful, some of these are very graphic.

 

 

our family of three

So, let me start off by saying that I am horrible at this. I have started a million blogs and have never kept up with them. I’m not promising myself to write everyday, or even once a week, but I am going to try. I want to be able to look back on this one day and remember what life was like. So, here’s to making the most of each day and to sharing it with all of you.

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This is our little family: Kennie, my husband… Me, Lizzy…& our sweet daughter Ezra Honour. We live in Nairobi, Kenya where we teach at an international private school through an organization called NICS. Last school year I taught elementary and middle school art and computers, but this year I will be staying at home with Ezra. My hope is that I will be able to use this time to serve my family as well as loving on the community around me- sharing Jesus in everything I do.

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We have been stateside this summer so we could be close to family during/after the birth of Ezra. Yesterday, Kennie went back to Nairobi to prepare for the upcoming school year. We already miss him terribly, but will be following him there in just a few weeks.

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I’m pretty much an emotional wreck… any other new moms feel this way sometimes? Who am I kidding… this is just normal Lizzy, ha. Leaving family behind in the states is one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. It’s especially hard now that Ezra is in the picture. So, you can pray for me that I would look for my satisfaction in Jesus because that’s the only place I will find it anyway.