Scars, sacrifice, & deep love /// How I deal with my post pregnancy body blues

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Photo credit: Katie Kubler

Since the beginning of my pregnancy, God has been using my precious little girl to teach me more and more about himself. Around the 30th week of my pregnancy the unthinkable happened. Yes, that’s right. My world was turned upside down. My life would never be the same. I got my first stretch mark.

This was NOT supposed to happen to me. They always say, if your mom had them you’ll have them, if not- you’re home free! Well, my mom had three children and never got even one stretch mark. So I just knew I’d sail through my pregnancy with that perfectly round, blemish-free belly. Yeah, that didn’t happen. In fact, once the first one appeared more seemed to appear everyday until I could barely remember what my stomach used to look like. All I could do was mourn the loss of my pre-pregnancy tummy until God used it to change my perspective.

I realized, first of all, that there was absolutely nothing I could have done to prevent these scars. I used all the oils and creams and nothing seemed to make a difference. Second of all, and more importantly, I realized that in order for Ezra’s body to be made perfect, mine had to be sacrificed. I would willingly accept every scar over and over again for her sake. This was the small glimpse I needed to see of how Jesus loves us.

Surely he has borne our griefs and carried our sorrows; yet we esteemed him stricken, smitten by God, and afflicted. But he was pierced for our transgressions; he was crushed for our iniquities; upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace, and with his wounds we are healed. (Isaiah 53:4, 5 ESV)

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Even now, Ezra has absolutely no idea how deep my love is for her. I know what she needs, she doesn’t. In fact, she will even sometimes struggle to accept the good things I have to offer her. I will be trying to feed her the milk she needs to flourish and grow and she squirms and cries due to her hunger pains. If she would just stop struggling and trust me to give her what she needs, wouldn’t that be much easier? How often are we like this in our relationship with God?

Commit your way to the Lord ; trust in him, and he will act. (Psalm 37:5 ESV)

And he said to his disciples, “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat, nor about your body, what you will put on. For life is more than food, and the body more than clothing. Consider the ravens: they neither sow nor reap, they have neither storehouse nor barn, and yet God feeds them. Of how much more value are you than the birds! And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? If then you are not able to do as small a thing as that, why are you anxious about the rest? Consider the lilies, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass, which is alive in the field today, and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith! And do not seek what you are to eat and what you are to drink, nor be worried. For all the nations of the world seek after these things, and your Father knows that you need them. Instead, seek his kingdom, and these things will be added to you. (Luke 12:22-31 ESV)

2 Thoughts on “Scars, sacrifice, & deep love /// How I deal with my post pregnancy body blues

  1. Kristi on August 8, 2013 at 2:44 am said:

    This made me cry. What a beautiful picture.

  2. jamie on August 8, 2013 at 4:24 am said:

    I have to remind myself of this everytime I look in the mirror too and its easier said than done! but our daughters are both just too beautiful so its worth it 🙂 congrats by the way!

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